I’ve always dealt with bitterness. I had hoped to grow out of it. To one day, wake up and not be frustrated at those around me. And then something happens to remind me of why I have such a low view of human beings. I have a trip to India planned for December of this year. A group of us planned to go into India, to share the gospel, to love others by sharing the message of Christ, as we are called as believers. This trip is two months away. And last night I got a call from home. My visa can only be processed once I sign a document stating that this trip is purely tourist and I have no religious intent. My mother and father aren’t willing to lie. And so, short of a miracle, we have no way into India. I cried. The fact that a piece of paper could keep someone from hearing the message of Christ doesn’t make sense to me. I don’t really share much with those I am in a small group at church with. I don’t trust them. But last night, I needed prayer. I sent a message to all the ladies, hoping for encouragement and prayer. I got one response. One woman saying the Lord will work it out. And then, the conversation promptly moved to Jackie, who got a new washing machine. And many women piped in on that. Because that is relatable. That we can understand. That is important. And not one more thought will be given to the fact that our trip is likely not happening, that some people will not hear the gospel and will spend eternity in Hell, that our excitement to travel to the ends of the earth for the sake of the gospel is being extinguished. But hey, Jackie got a new washing machine. This is why I don’t share with people. They don’t care. They care about themselves and all that they can relate to. I’m disgusted and really angry. I just needed to rant, to a computer, because it seems that few people in my life actually care.


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